What area(s) of you life do you need to improve in order to live your best life?
I would say what others think of me. People aren’t going to like me and that is okay. Growing up as a people pleaser, it was a cardinal sin if someone didn’t like me and I had to do my best to make sure I was all things to all people. That meant even trying to be besties with people who didn’t like me. I tried. They made fun of me. Then I just gave up….
Also, it’s seeking approval. As a child, school was not a home for me, and I was picked on by students. I did not do well. Factor in autism and ADHD (diagnosed as a fortysomething) where I just could NOT do the work, but in the seventies they just labeled you as a problem and I got put in dummy math groups, slower paced classes, and my friends who were smart and did well in school, as they didn’t stink, wear grandma clothes, have bad perms, or a headgear, school was a fun place to go. School was fun for them, but my friends, at times, excluded me because I was “one of them”, the slow kids…. I was an embarsassment to my mother, who was a teacher and this just should NOT happen to one of her children. I was to get all A’s and be the teacher’s pet, and then to my dad’s family, where a B- was FAILING, I was the black sheep. Hey, a B- was an A+ for me…. I always want people to see my best side and hope and pray they don’t see a fat, autistic child with ADHD, as I still see that girl…