Shadow Work: Prompt 19

What aspects of yourself would you like to improve? Why? Has anyone in your past made comments suggesting that you should? If so, how did it make you feel?

I wish I were a better conversationalist. I had been told as a server that I talked way too much about my family and repeated things too much. I was told by a manager without any warning or anything from the servers who complained about me. It hurt my feelings to be honest, but professionally I have noticed this as well, like people making excuses to get away from me. Maybe I do repeat things and don’t get cues when people are done talking to me. It’s something I think I may get tested for because the more I read on it, the more I think I am on the spectrum, but at fifty most of my life is over. I wish people would be more sympathetic, but we were raised in an era where it just is treated as a social ill and not with compassion…